Thursday, December 15, 2005

Skunks

Skunks came to lick my eyes in the night. Small black birds feasted on my guts. There is someone named Bobby-Lucy who is entering this quadrant, claiming to be my advice guide of the moment. She is not. There is a boil on my cheek, it's ok, it's purple.

Today is for inside/outside living, achieving something with yaps and small brushes and returning without really returning to the ideas in my junkyard. Painting has been virtually non-existent for weeks and even drawing has seemed unusually hard. Where is the porpoise of truth, not in liquid or dry formats, not in gesture or spills, not in patterns or squeaky bits. Resolution anticipates coming in January. I am trying hard not to buy heroin for the holidays. I have many many families to visit. If anyone has heroin please call me.

21 comments:

mountain man said...

Heroin can be put to effective use is one argument to myself.

mountain man said...

But MM, heroin is heard to be dangerously addictive, are you not worried about the consequences on your health and general outlook?

mountain man said...

Listen MM, sometimes I worry about this but then I think, wtf, I can't bear to live through the holidays one more time as myself. Let's try it as a junkie, see what I'm saying?

mountain man said...

You have a point.

sloth said...

hm, smack at christmas: interesting idea. might be worth a try... but it would be safer just to double up on SSRI's, and spike the egg nog with codeine.

mountain man said...

But Slothy, why use the egg nog as a vehicle when codeine tastes so darn good on its own???? See what I'm saying?????

SSRI's are no good for MM this year. Not strong enough. SMACK injected straight into the bum cheek. That's what I need.

mountain man said...

My pale bum cheeks are ready for the real raw deal. My hair turned into icicles over night. Did this happen to anyone else?

I must go drop off my painting for HELLO SUNDAY!!!!!! VERY SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sloth said...

mm, were the icicles on the bum hair? please clarify.

sloth said...

idea #2: a smack-popsicles!

mountain man said...

Yes, yes and yes.

fairy butler said...

mm, would you like me to ask my neighbor johnny about the H. While he swears to me that he is "off that shit" I might be able to buy some oxy from him - or just dip into his methadone stash a little.

I spotted Johnny walking ferociously last night down the street, coat open, no gloves, no hat. Something is making him impervious to the cold ass winds.? I wonder... well, actually I think it is meth. He likes to explore all ends of the drug experience spectrum.

Heroin would be perfect for my beige. Good time-waster.

fairy butler said...

I have been at beige a little over an hour now. I think I am done for the day. How am I going to kill the next six hours?! Help.

mountain man said...

Are there no markers for you to sniff, FB? No glue?

fairy butler said...

i am trying rocking back and forth at break neck speed. wonderfully disorienting. also i may spray a little urine in some of the fake plants scattered about. i could search out some white outs.

why do i have to be here? why? why?

at least it is warm.

fairy butler said...

i am pathetic

Anonymous said...

i am sick of myself and this stupid fucking depression. it's really just boring and tedious.

postmoderndebunker said...

I am hurt MM. If you need a little "pick me up" (or bring me down...) why didn't you ask me?? I still got my oxy supply.

fabeebles said...

anonymous, you noes what yu need? KRUNK and a cooky! thas right. we needs to get the jig out - slide it out and spray. thaz right - - cinnamon krunk. now where's my plastik bag?

Anonymous said...

i think it is partly all the christmas music. if i hear "feliz navidad" one more time i will jump out of the window...

postmoderndebunker said...

Fabeebs! Where you been? I was waiting on the corner with the stuff last month...and no sign of your scrawny self.

Corny said...

MM, try what my students have clamed to do, stick your head in microwave and cook at a VERY LOW SETTING FOR A VERY SHORT TIME, like on my micowave, I might just push the button that says "reheat vegitables"... you might have to fiddle with the door to make this work.