Sunday, June 19, 2005

Else is Muchful

So. As some of you realize, I and Uncle Fritz were away on a leave due to the funeral of his father. I hesitate to mention it here as it was that raw inside us, very pain-making, this is what happened. Uncle Fritz has donned the transparent cloak of his forebearer - a multi-divisional grieving cloak. Some have criticized the force of his grief, the lack of his grief, the degree of painfulness he chooses to reveal, but I will not. Instead I have anticipated and made padding where necessary, as well as I can muster. The brown spaces provided a cuddling experience, despite liquefaction and dry heaves. The boxed longhouse in the manicured grasses provided sanctuary as was hoped. MM was inside and outside, trying and trying. This elder father was a tall and barrel-like bear of loveliness. We miss him dearly and speak of him with hopes for emulation one day. Water drops trickled as words spoke themselves of special-making powers easily transmuted. Losing is familiar to all, more poignant in circumstance to some, but we felt lucky to know this one. It is alright to take leave when your vessel is rotting. It's alright even if it doesn't seem like yet should be now.

12 comments:

Dancer of Asymmetry said...

This sounds meaningful and lovely, if sad. Good grooming to you. Point of entry upon return.

Soda Pop said...

I want to meow all over the place. You are a large bowl of salty dry things. I want to lick and eat thee.

PD said...

MM: What poetry you've written from this sadness. Grief cannot be measured--it is unproductive for those who need to measure and count.
The intensity of feeling changes--grief can creep up slowly and quietly--your anticipation is important. Your padding is the antidote-vile for Uncle Fritz.

PD said...

AND...I am so happy you are back! Sleep and sleep more---do not take on too much without rest and the comfort of smoked meats.

We all love you!

mountain man said...

Thanks PD!! Very smile-making. Happy morning to you! I love you! Smoked meats are waiting for me in my warm envelope below the bed.

Perplexer said...

Intuition can serve you on the road to trapping and smoking the meats that you love.

Preston said...

Hey MM. I missed you too. I could do nothing this weekend--no oral gratification for me.

parapalegic magician said...

Smoked meats are good for inflammation.

PD said...

Good morning MM. I want you to know that my friend Luigi DiGiorno is making his famous smoked quail and fennel sausage just for you and Uncle Fritz (and cousin Miranda). You must keep the steady flow of meats going throughout the day...and week.

mountain man said...

Thank you PD!!! I love any type of sausage, as you know. My mouth is coming into its own just thinking of this. You are thoughtful and lovely. Hi Preston. We are all hungry for the meats of the soul.

fairy butler said...

Yes, sad but full of homage and care. You are good to Uncle Fritz and keep him safe from harm. We are happy to have you home.

krixfort said...

that is a beautiful post mm. very sad and beautiful. I am sorry for your loss.